maybe I’m going through withdrawal.
i can’t tell if im frustrated because i can’t feel anything for him or because i can’t feel anything from him. being lied to for a whole year, discovering that your love was an object of manipulation, a lie, for someone else’s sick excuse to repair what was broken inside of them, without any concern for you, albeit the fact that whatever’s broken is absolutely irreparable, can and has completely altered my perception of even my own feelings. emotionally, i feel disconnected. i want to feel intense passion, or even lust without thinking about whether or not it’s even real. i want to believe that there are some people who won’t deceive me ever, who won’t stubbornly hide behind a mask of shame. but everyone lies. if you’re going to hurt me just go ahead and do it. dragging it out is just fucking annoying.
use, abuse, lose
-what’s happening to me
ok so we all know sebastian has pretty great legs right i mean look at em
but can we please take a moment and just appreciate
his thighs are in tHE WINTER SOLDIER
SOMEONE CALL LIFE ALERT
he’s treating me like this so I don’t fall in love. I hate him. he’s a coward and a bastard. at least I’m not really hurting